Hi, it's Kai
Welcome to my little corner of the internet :)
Please enjoy your stay. if you're having a good time, let's do something together!
(and also feel free to
& tell me what's on your mind!)
Some things I've been exploring lately:
how principles and practices shape peoples lives
how important it is to simply show up
increasing the surface area for self-connection
posture and practicing the way you show up for yourself
"trying" vs "letting things unfold"
how the world needs you to come alive
honouring yourself in connnection with others
seeing the beauty in your own fear and awkwardness
Do any of these resonate with you? Let's go for a walk and talk about it :)
Sometimes, Kai writes.
so what did i learn?
written
several people sat me down and gave me a good long hard talking-to. I’ve been getting A LOT of these lately. maybe the universe is conspiring me to help me get better?
anyways, i learned that:
- i am not good at loving the good parts of life
- i am not good at celebrating my successes because i don’t allow myself to see my successes
- i have some core beliefs that need balancing; one is the belief that i’m not good enough
- i need to build more internal confidence. i can do this by listing out what i’m feeling & where i feel like this is coming from; then, after understanding the root of where i’m coming from, find one actionable thing i can do that will address things.
- i am scaring [some] women away because i’m being too warm and loving too quickly. this may inspire fears related to: independence (”this guy might be kinda smothering / overbearing”); safety (”this guy might get kinda obsessive”); wanting things to go slowly (”i’m easing back into the idea of romance; romance is hard for me as a concept to begin with, and this is like a lot”); and also not-feeling-it-guilt (”this guy is being so loving off the bat, but i can’t reciprocate his intensity of affection [this early on]”)
i should do something about all these things. soon.
In the area?
