Hi, it's Kai
Welcome to my little corner of the internet :)
Please enjoy your stay. if you're having a good time, let's do something together!
(and also feel free to
& tell me what's on your mind!)
Some things I've been exploring lately:
Do any of these resonate with you? Let's go for a walk and talk about it :)
Sometimes, Kai writes.
walking the tightrope
written
feelings feelings feelings
i get that she cares about me
but maybe its not in the way i am wanting
am i okay with that?
i feel like there's a physics to these emotions
i'm not stupid, i know that
there is a deep intelligence in my body
and i can choose to trust it and be empowered
when i'm with her i am finding myself fawning
i disconnect from myself in order to appease her
i lose sense of my reality
in order to be attuned to hers
but at least i shared my truth
i shared myself and my emotions
i am vulnerable and sweet in how i showed up
i loved and i gave of myself
but now that this has happened, i don't think that being more giving in this connection will be appropriate for me
i've done quite a bit of giving, emotionally
and i think now i will choose to take a step back and connect with myself
and find ways to love and honour myself
(a solo dance party is in order)
i need to find a way to reconnect with my power now that i've lost so much of it
i'm detecting the beginning of a familiar story
and i have the beautiful opportunity for myself to write a new ending
to this same old story i keep telling myself
about what i deserve in love
i gave plentifully
and now i will go home, bear my losses, and heal.
