hi, it's kai

welcome to my little corner of the internet :)
please enjoy your stay. if you're having a good time, let's do something together!

(and also feel free to
& tell me what's on your mind!)

some things i've been exploring lately:

how principles and practices shape peoples lives
how important it is to simply show up
increasing the surface area for self-connection
posture and practicing the way you show up for yourself
"trying" vs "letting things unfold"
how the world needs you to come alive
honouring yourself in connnection with others
seeing the beauty in your own fear and awkwardness

do any of these resonate with you? let's go for a walk and talk about it :)

sometimes, kai writes.

i wish i had the answers (requiem)

written

i used to think that love is all about what i could provide for someone

or about how perfectly i’m able show up for someone

love was something i always “screwed up” because i wasn’t good enough

something i hoped for under my breath, in the dark

something that terrified me and confused me

i guess i had thought that maybe by this point in life that i would be less scared and less confused

and that love would be something that i could approach with certainty and confidence.

but honestly? life is scary. and uncertain. and i have no idea what’s going to happen next

and so maybe love is just always going to be a reflection of that.

maybe love is having no idea what’s going to happen next, but doing it together

sitting in the dark, holding hands, not knowing

more words pls