Hi, it's Kai
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Some things I've been exploring lately:
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Sometimes, Kai writes.
selfhood
written
being me feels weird
i’m starting to take myself seriously
as like a real human
as someone deserving of love, care, and affection
its been such a long journey of getting to this point
of saying that hey
yes
i do, in fact, matter.
why has it been so hard?
i guess i just keep forgetting that the world isn’t fair
and that i keep putting myself on the harder path
the one that feels right
and yet
can i really call it the harder path?
i mean, there’s a reason i keep taking it. perhaps it just looks deceptively hard, but in actuality, it’s the one that’s easiest for me.
maybe i need to take a step back
and look at all the paths
and all the way things could have turned out
maybe it’s okay for my values to shift
maybe it’s okay to not be the person i used to want to be.
Well. either way. i’ve got a journey up ahead
and i intend to embark on it with grace.
no matter the outcome, i will be well.
for wellness is a lifestyle,
not an outcome.
a lifestyle that i can adopt the moment i lay down my sword and my shield,
stare down the unknown, right in the eyeballs
and whisper:
“yes, i’m scared. i’m scared to death, and that’s okay.”
“yes, i’m scared. what if i change? who will i be, if not the me that i’ve always been?”
“yes, i’m scared. but i’m here. and i’m open to the possibilities. and i’m ready for you to take my hand, and show me a world beyond this one. i know this is my calling. this is my journey. this is my personal legend, and i’m so far beyond turning back.”
